hi laptop! i have missed you. i thought you would only be away for a few days but alas it was a week. i feel as if my mouth has been duct taped shut. so much to say and no where to say it.
the changing of the seasons reminded me of a lovely little moment that took place at the beginning of the summer. i’ve shared before that i have a disability. i got seconds when it comes to self confidence. it’s not that i actually am better,smarter, prettier ,or funnier, than anyone else….goodness knows, that couldn’t be true. i do think that i am better, smarter, prettier, and funnier, than i actually am. most times this doesn’t hurt anyone because it’s all going down inside my head anyway.
let’s just set the stage. it’s the beginning of summer. i’m in my tiny weeny bikini. i’ve had a couple of glasses of wine. i’m sitting in a circle of girls just chatting. beside me, with my bat like hearing, i hear the 13 year old boy say to his mother (a woman i have just met) i see hair. the mother says just don’t look at it. i think nothing of it. surely, they aren’t talking about me. i’m too pretty and funny and smart for them to be talking about me.
some time goes by. my husband comes over to the group to check in. he leans into me and tells me that i have “pubs” peaking out of the top of my bottoms. gasp! i guess i might be pretty and smart and all that crap, but i am also way too greek.
yep, and that’s how the monkey is kept from taking over the world.
one horrific, demeaning, moment at a time.
needless to say, i tucked those buggers back in and kindly walked away. cause, really, what else can you do.