For those of you who read me regularly, you may have noticed radio silence. I had not been able to find words to convey my sadness regarding the ugliness so front and center in our lives. I’m not talking about bad cops. Or bad politicians. Or gun wielding religious extremists. I am referring generally to the evilness of man. Those that deny equality in love. Those that don’t speak up when injustice happens before them in the same air that they breathe. I am talking about the rage that propels us to do harm to others. Or is it fear?
To my friends of white children:
Do you remember the time in your child’s early life where you could breathe a sigh of relief? They were born with all the right parts. SIDS was no longer a worry. You felt safe. A cloud was lifted and you would have this sweet baby forever. Imagine if that relief would never come. That while SIDS may be a fear long past, there is still the worry of keeping your child safe in a world where they are found suspect because you gave them the wrong color skin. A mother videoed yanking her child from a less than peaceful protest does so because she is panicked that in doing so he has made greater the size of the bullseye he was born with on his back. Which came first, the profile or the profiler? It doesn’t matter because the result feels the same. It hurts. Down in the bones to not be treated equally. It is angering to be told that this county is for all, when your experience is that it is for some.
To my friends that don’t look like me,
America is broken and my heart bleeds for it. For you. For us all. I have experienced what being a woman in this country can mean. I know the hurt of just wanting to do business as an equal and to feel judged as less than, because I can not hide who I am. I am not feared but I have been disregarded and it has darkened my spirit. I write this, in tears, my pain greater than words can express. I understand. I am sorry. I will spend my life working to create a ripple of change for our children.
I wish peace for us all. Of hearts of minds and of homes.
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